Running for Kristy: A THOUSAND EYES

The following entries (from beginning runner to half marathon finisher) represents a continuing journey of tremendous grief and sorrow, and of transformation - largely through the therapeutic power of running. The sorrow that has broken my heart open wide has in time allowed me to experience the beauty of being in the present moment. And of course, without the support of family and friends to guide me, I would not have made it this far.

If you have lost someone in your life, I offer these words and verse (some Kristy's, some mine and others) with the hope it may touch your heart and help you heal.
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Friday, December 12, 2008

A THOUSAND EYES

I am stronger

because I bear in me

not my own little life

but all the lives

and steadily I walk forward

because I have

a thousand eyes

que soy MAS FUERTE!!

porque te llevo en me,

NO MI PEQUENA VIDA

sino TODOS LAS VIDAS

y ando seguro hacia delante

MIL OJOS!

by Pablo Neruda

siempre mi corazon - Elliot

Today's workout: 6 miles at the lake. I did a tempo run with the first half being an easy pace and the last half divided between medium tempo and fast tempo. This was definitely out of my comfort zone but I was able to complete the course in 62 minutes which is a good time for me. 44 minutes of the run were in zone with an average heart beat of 145. I took the above photo of the lake afterwards. It was a beautiful day.

1 comment:

ejJuly 23, 2009 at 10:55 PM
Today I rode new roads... alone yet not... for you were with me. It was beauty and it was brutality. See... I love you Kristy. I just can't help it. I always have.

I hope to see you again someday. Perhaps we will recognize each other...and you will let me hold you once more.
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Through Her Eyes

By Kristy's mom

letting her go is such an act of finality
this finality is so acute
it brings all other relationships into focus
the cushion between you and your mortality is gone
grieving this loss is grieving the loss of your own life
and coming to terms with its presence
it becomes an idea that cannot be ignored
she is now and forever living in you
in your eyes and your heart
she is there
and you can tell when you are seeing things
through her eyes
when the feeling of her spirit touches you
in these moments you are overcome
with all the fullness of her presence
as if all your memories of her
were compressed into one, tiny pinhole
a shining light of pure energy
and it is love
it is now your part to take this love
and distribute it by planting her seed
so that she may live again

Kristy's indomitable spirit was both admirable and infectious. I feel blessed and fortunate to have met her and train with her. My favorite memories of Kristy were riding abreast on the long Sunday trainingrides, boy she could REALLY put the hurt on!!!…

It was very special to have her pat me on the back while I was suffering on the rollers in the cycling gym. She had an extraordinary ability to push the limits on the bike without showing it!!! I have mixed feelings about the fact that I was the last one to be with her before being taken away by the ambulance, but I want everyone to know that even with her broken body, she never stopped fighting. Kristy was a special human being and will remain in my thoughts and prayers for the rest of my days on this earth.

-Daniel Brasse, Third Pillar