The following entries (from beginning runner to half marathon finisher) represents a continuing journey of tremendous grief and sorrow, and of transformation - largely through the therapeutic power of running. The sorrow that has broken my heart open wide has in time allowed me to experience the beauty of being in the present moment. And of course, without the support of family and friends to guide me, I would not have made it this far.

If you have lost someone in your life, I offer these words and verse (some Kristy's, some mine and others) with the hope it may touch your heart and help you heal.

Thursday, November 19, 2015


Today was your birthday. I was working today when Pandora played the song "Yellow".  How could it be a coincidence? I realized it's getting easier to hear this song.  I felt the lump in my throat and the tears swelling in my eyes, but I decided to think of how much I love you instead of how much I miss you. It helped get me though. You fill me.

Look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things you do

And you were all yellow

Friday, April 3, 2015


my mind is constantly writing

a letter to you

not a postcard or a memo

but a manuscript

It is never ending

with no beginning

it's just


Monday, March 9, 2015


It happened in an instant
they said you were gone 
They said they couldn't save you
it was an ocean of waiting

I didn't expect those words
I sat and my mind went blank
I was numb as a rag doll
limp as my breath

That moment in time was
both the beginning and the end
When the worlds collide it is a rebirth
nothing is ever the same 

The past memories of you are always
a blink behind my eyes
The future is always stalking me
a shimmer in the curtain

You are a new memory every day
For you have never left me
You have never been forgotten
You are my most