The following entries (from beginning runner to half marathon finisher) represents a continuing journey of tremendous grief and sorrow, and of transformation - largely through the therapeutic power of running. The sorrow that has broken my heart open wide has in time allowed me to experience the beauty of being in the present moment. And of course, without the support of family and friends to guide me, I would not have made it this far.

If you have lost someone in your life, I offer these words and verse (some Kristy's, some mine and others) with the hope it may touch your heart and help you heal.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


On my last trip to New Mexico the sun split the rain
clouds and a rainbow formed.

While I was running this morning these thoughts came to me. My love for you is like two parts of one puzzle. If I had not loved I could not have felt your loss so cruelly. If I had not mourned I could not have recognized your love so completely. I am sharing this journey with you.

For you
my heart did sing.
For you
my heart did die.

For you
my heart will live.
For you
my heart cries why.

Thank you

Friday, October 16, 2009


Love is stronger than death she said
as I reached to find her near
a breath, a look, a yearning smile
are but mirrors from the dead