The following entries (from beginning runner to half marathon finisher) represents a continuing journey of tremendous grief and sorrow, and of transformation - largely through the therapeutic power of running. The sorrow that has broken my heart open wide has in time allowed me to experience the beauty of being in the present moment. And of course, without the support of family and friends to guide me, I would not have made it this far.

If you have lost someone in your life, I offer these words and verse (some Kristy's, some mine and others) with the hope it may touch your heart and help you heal.

Monday, April 13, 2009


The Marion Berries Kristy and I planted
are just starting to flower. Soon they will
bring forth large juicy fruit. We loved to
eat them right off the bush.

I worked in our garden today Kristy. I saw you
everywhere, and when the sun went down I
came inside and wrote these words to you.

I step out onto the deck and you are there
Bending over the boards as you sand each one
I step into the house and you are here
Riding a floor sander in jerky pirouettes
I'll never forget what you said
"There's allot of love in these floors"
When I sit in the garden I see you still
On your knees laying stone upon stone
So proud of your fiery red peppers

I close my eyes
And step back into my world
Your memory is very much alive
Yet I am very much


  1. I love you, my sister. My heart aches that you struggle with this tragedy every day.

  2. te amo te amo te amo

  3. I went to the site recently and saw the white bike.My home is in Canada. Altogether, I stayed 15 minutes in their company. There was just me and the thoughts rushing through my mind. Humbling in the extreme. I placed a small stone on each plaque and a wild flower for Kristy.Stones on the tombstone are a Jewish tradicion-I'm not Jewish but the idea works.
    Keep up with the site and let the items flow out of you into the universe. Peace.