The following entries (from beginning runner to half marathon finisher) represents a continuing journey of tremendous grief and sorrow, and of transformation - largely through the therapeutic power of running. The sorrow that has broken my heart open wide has in time allowed me to experience the beauty of being in the present moment. And of course, without the support of family and friends to guide me, I would not have made it this far.

If you have lost someone in your life, I offer these words and verse (some Kristy's, some mine and others) with the hope it may touch your heart and help you heal.

Friday, September 25, 2009


Inspired by James Ellroy

The dead claim the living
and mark their decline
before and after become
a narrative in time

You had her before
and now she is gone
her death begins then
and drags you along

The dead claim the living
and bestow a sad wreath
we are powerless to control
our hopelessness and grief

You cannot predict when
or where grief will come
but you know that the loss
cannot be undone

The dead claim the living
and tell us how we should live
if we stop and then listen
we may have to forgive

You want to move forward
with her love as the goal
to show her that death
cannot conquer the soul

The dead claim the living
an urgent call be not lost
so you honor this child
you seek good at all cost

Your love of her presence
cannot vanquish your fears
and the beauty of her life
is nourished with tears

The dead claim the living
through visions yet seen
of the horror they endured
and dreams they won't dream

Yet your love is so precious
so solid and real
through memories of her
your heart dares to heal


  1. We who partake of your pain, suffer as we contemplate your suffering. As you heal, so do we. Your poem helps.

  2. You are so very strong and I love you so very much. B