Running Without a Leash

We remember you today - Jack and I. 

Jack is now 14 years old and has a hard 

time seeing. But I know he still

dreams of you. In his dreams he is a puppy and you 

are running together at Lake Chabot.

Jack tries to catch a cow. That results in 

the leash being put on again. Oh well, it

was worth a try. 

Kristy understood.

RUSHING AWAY

I thought this verse was speaking to you today -- but I think maybe it is speaking to me.

 Lyrics by Agnes Obel

Oh my one, rushing away

With a bag full of bones

I know the place you left

Still won’t leave you alone

Anchor in My Heart

Eyes like two comets

hands like an anchor in my heart

oh to be drifting

like a drunken flower beast

beating my wings against the comforting breeze

Do you see me now?

are you piercing through the night

with a thousand glittering eyes

or a moon shadow watering the ground

Your heart the tangled forest

damp and swollen, nearly bursting

speak to me again my love

breathe yourself into my heart

let me rest my head on your shores

For KG  Aug 2009

PS. I miss you

BLACK PLASTIC AND IRON BONES

Yesterday, while going through an old box, I found this scribbled on a piece of paper. It made me smile as I could feel the tears forming.  I wrote this upon receiving the box with your ashes.

11 YEARS LATER

Look over your shoulder 

I will be there

Feel the wind in your face

Hold my hand with your smile

The road is ahead

though I can’t see the end

I know you will wait

NOTHING IN HASTE

A rush to the head, a breath torn apart
the eyes of the world, and eyes of my heart

I feel you in love and even in haste
A leading line straight with nothing to waste


Happy Birthday my love.  Forty-one years young.

10 YEARS

I have endured the last 10 years without you. You are with me still, not even death can diminish you.

DANCING AT FORTY

Today you would be forty years old and I can imagine you being here. You would be strong, resilient and brave. You would be compassionate and open. And I hope above all else you would be dancing. You are always with me Kristy, a part of me so deep we shall never escape. I will not spend my life grieving but will go forward with gratitude. I still shed tears but as I hold you in my heart we are smiling at each other at last.

CORNERS

Today, as always, I am yours....

THE GAME

like a game of solitaire
my mind keeps moving the pieces
it doesn't have time to stop
think
wonder

because i think about you
and i think about the ones
you loved

the game plays out
and each move tells the story

only i can't hit
replay

it takes place instead in my dreams
when you are here
and then you are not

but yet i dream
and play the hand
over and over

whether i win or
whether i loose
the game goes on
and on

sometimes i rest